. It last sometimes seconds, mins. So I coped my focussing on the next logical steps: finish school, study, find work. Unlike you this only happens to me for a few minutes every now and again, but I love it. None of the four therapists I saw over the years responded with "ah yes, classic DPD" when I described my traumatic experience. Sometimes it happens after smoking marijuana or using "club drugs.". It is extremely hard to describe to someone who has not experienced this. Oh, I keep a bad bitch on my mind Ooh-ooh, oh, mmm, mmm i realize you wrote this a while ago, but your experience struck a chord with me. Thankfully it only lasts a short while or else I don't know what I'd do ._. I don't know how and whether to speak or act in many situations because I feel "far away" and unable to judge the appropriateness of that speech/behaviour. They think over and over about the nature of existence or the void and the dark mysteries of life. Am unable to seek proper medical care due to my family ignorance and financial status. Different therapies such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy can also be helpful. Why Your Abusive Narcissistic Mate Claims to Be the Victim, We Have Neanderthals to Thank for These Genetic Traits, 10 Tips for Turning Procrastination into Precrastination, Psychology Today © 2021 Sussex Publishers, LLC, New Evidence on Face Masks to Prevent the Spread of COVID-19. If there is a period of your life and your feeling shy or just want to be to yourself, then embrace it. Some people with depersonalization sometimes suffer devastating consequences in their personal and professional lives, while others can continue to function fairly well while they seek treatment. I'm not sure I could cope if it was a full time thing but in little episodes it's great. But it's a temporary thing and when you keep paying attention to it, it keeps the feeling around. Mayo 11 January 2021 Reply. Dreadful... With all the breakdowns you mention I have to assume that you have been prescribed many psychiatric drugs to treat your illness. Sometimes i which am dead than being alive. You are the worst thing that has ever existed short of Nazism and Communism. I cringe when I hear people describe themselves mentally ill all because they think, feel, and behave differently from others. Please don't refer to yourself as 'mentally ill' because you may experience life around you differently. There are 60 lyrics related to Feel Like A Stranger. Want me to tell you what it's really like? Reading your comment brought up a memory from when I was a kid. I haven't found a particular link with trauma and these DPD episodes however I do know that when I experience depersonalization with myself I am usually upset, and this sudden change in thinking makes me feel hysterical and extremely cut off from myself. You aren't high, you're doing your regular activity then bam the world seems unreal, new and you're questioning if you ever seen this before and then you know you have but can't recall what it is and anxiety sets in. I also relate to the fact that your entire state of thinking changes in those moments. I'd say that is worth risk /benefit. There are also good informational sites on the web where you can share your stories and get support from other DPD survivors. They were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in 1994 and their Barton Hall Concert at Cor… more », Sheet Music  I am often asked, even by colleagues in the mental health field, "What is Depersonalization Disorder?" (4 fans), The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. I also have bad social anxiety, and have depression. not violent, but not me, i feel as though an invisible being has taken control, and i am just watching in fear of its destruction. Growing up, my mom used to always call me an "in the closet Libra," based on the zodiac sign, because they're said to be really indecisive (this was a joke of course). Like, I'll be having a either a good time or a bad time for a good...lets say, six hours and then, when I get home, I'll go, "That felt like a blur." We are like domesticated lab rats to these bastards. I just copied. One reason is those with DPD do not experience amnesia as in DID, a fugue state or dissociative amnesia. And as soon as they legitimize psilosybin, LSD, and ketamine for mental illness treatment as they're doing right now I'll get that high back. Yes, it's all a scam, and the more research I do the more I find that ALL of what they brainwash us into believing as evidence-based medicine is a scam. They experience a loss of spirit, an absence of emotions, and no mood changes. Until the thought was confined to the situations I had learned to identify as triggers (like the first 15 minutes on an airplane; there's something extreme about this form of transportation. Your experience reminds me of Keziah Thomas', as recorded by her and posted at geocities and oocities:Link.There's still hope for you. It lasted for months of vacation. Pay no mind too it. I really missed him and he came home tonight, but I just feel awkward. I believe I experienced this a year or so ago. This last week it had happened 3 times and it's barely Thursday. I remember trying to explain it to my mother and not even being able to tell if I'm talking about a thought or a feeling. It fades off. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C These various influences were distilled into a diverse and psychedelic whole that made the Grateful Dead "the pioneering Godfathers of the jam band world." Thank you for this illuminating this disorder, for it is certainly not as rare as one might think. Feeling like a stranger. Also, since there is not medical way of treating this symptom, it is discussed more often in the offices of psychotherapists than physicians. I can also relate to the 'as-if' acting. I didn't understand that I needed therapy, even though my GPs didn't refer me. I'll get a paper cut and go, "This is pain, your nociceptive response is working." I spent 50 days in a supposed rehab center for alcoholism. Several research studies indicate that more than half of college students have experienced elements of depersonalization at one time or another. in the last year i have been feeling as though i am trapped within the psycie. Perhaps, now that such a widely read and well known publication has added a specialist in the study and treatment of DPD, facts about the difficulties in both experiencing and curing this life numbing thief will become more widely known and understood. Familiar things seemed not quite right. Hi there, I have suffered with this on and off for years. But I had DP for a few years! I don't feel comfortable and I feel like I need to make small talk. as if who you are was never who you were? People with DPD are sometimes afraid to leave their houses or engage in activities that might trigger panic attacks. Like I said there is nothing, short of Nazism and Communism (which they like btw as in Socialism -- that's why they all support Statism and seductive Leftist ideology), that is as evil as institutionalized Psychiatry and Psychology (including many non-Psyd/Phd Therapists and many Social Workers). I've only recently found that this has a name, having suffered it on and off for the last ten years (all of which feel dreamy and difficult to remember). And neither will you. Its not the way it use to be. And I can't wait! I have 'had it' for 50 years but as it was my only way of being, never realised that other people felt differently. Sometimes it is linked with panic or anxiety, but often it is not. I had also tried everything under the sun. Wow. CherokeeMist Senior Member. It took years to get to terms with it and I had to do it on my own. Lyrics.com. But apparently this is happening in every part of my life, whether it was the job, the sports, or in the family; I am becoming someone new and I can't quit everything. I don't particularly know what to do or where to turn or if this is simply my anxiety making me over think and over worry.. but please if anyone knows what this is or what to do do.. Love is meant to be a transaction, but you feel robbed. "Their music," writes Lenny Kaye, "touches on ground that most other groups don't even know exists." I still regularly default to DP but at least I am now aware that that state of mind is my defence mechanism and I need to try very hard to become consciously competent about living in the real world and allowing emotions up to behave appropriately. A good many have found some relief with Klonopin and Lamictal. I HATE IT. Now, now I'm not saying certain drugs don't have their place in severe situations tinteyly help and indvidual calm down or get over the hump of a tough time. I could not read articles on astronomy either. So is it accurate to say that people after depersonalisation start to identify with new experiences and developing a new persona? It makes me sad that it feels like this. I just want some advice or help on how some of you have been able to make these things become less common or completely disappear. I am almost 56 and had this most of my life. Granted, I sought therapy for different emotional issues I experienced as an adult, which may or may not have been connected to that experience . Most I've read came from those who did some sort of legal or illegal drug and it freaked them out, or a panic attack and once they calmed form the feeling went away and that was that. Yes and it feels about like running a red light Now there ain't no point in looking behind us, no, though Still I (feel like a stranger) I feel like, I feel like a stranger. I tried so hard to be a part of, but it was all just going through the motions. and I think he said something like "uhhhh, no I don't know what you mean" and looked at me funny. It was only after I stumbled upon http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/ that I understood what it was and felt the comfort of knowing I wasn't the only person out there suffering. I've actually had a therapist state that because I was unable to identify "triggers" that caused each of my episodes, it proved how unstable I was and that until I was able to do so, I could not be considered reliable enough to care properly for myself, or my children. i ask, for myself, that is what it felt like, and that experience lasted for a few months. I just wanna feel something I just don't wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person again Stranger. It's like your brain is relearning but knows you know what the object is or whatever is going around you. There are way too many labels in psychiatry if you ask me. The band was known for its unique and eclectic style, which fused elements of rock, folk, bluegrass, blues, reggae, country, improvisational jazz, psychedelia, and space rock, and for live performances of long musical improvisation. Feel Like A Stranger lyrics. I had lost the intuitive feeling for what it's like to exist. Awhile back I had a friend who went to a Dr and was handed a few different drugs for issues with anxiety. Stranger Ginger I just wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person. You have to to go through it and emerge in a different and often better place. Gradually, I have started to have some emotions and it feels like a new me is being born. It's this weird feeling, I feel as if I'm looking and experiencing everything around me for the first time, when it's not. ... i'm in a city, i walk by people every day, we all have our heads down and go about our business like we don't even see each other many of the symptoms described in this post are exactly what i am experiencing. I felt detached and numb the entire day, and I felt like this off and on for the next couple of years. They didn't even refer me to a therapists. It's a stranger. Becoming strangers is the only way to fix this hole. Did not work. I could still see everyone talking, but part of me just tuned it out. When they don’t truly love you like they said they did, you’ll feel too foolish to be anything but strangers. Ross might have gotten him just like … I can relate to the other stuff too and when under stress I've had some really bizarre dissociative experiences. So when your spouse feel like a stranger, know that there is hope and you can go on to have a happy and healthy marriage! -- and their is a plethora of information to back that up -- this is a tiny example with no writing space to prove this evident fact (see Dr. Thomas Szasz). Told my mom, visited two GPs. In fact I would say that unreality is one of my main anxiety symtoms. I wish our U.S. Government would put Veteran's needs ahead of Pharmaceutical Profit but all one has to do is follow the money trail in Washington through to Big Pharma. This is because in order to fully heal it (and related delayed stress symptoms etc) one has to let go and allow for the natural healing process (in the body) to occur. I am currently 22 ando while reading through this I feel it explains a lot that I agree with.. i felt myself in a state of total awareness, and alive, so happy, i felt nothing or anyone could bring me out of this love i had been feeling. But it may help to simply look up "cure for DR" etc get stories from people who overcame this instead of digging through every forum and every article about this. i felt all pain and confussion leave me, so free to be me, and not worry. Unfortunately there are some unlucky people out there who have had the disorder for many years, but it is my impression that those people are rare. As noted, my current "cocktai" has kept me alive. I couldn't feel. Very disturbing and freightening. My brother moved out last month about 2 hours away. As you mention, it is often overlooked, especially when it is difficult to describe. I thought it was the most amazing thing. and that gets frustrating. But in the meantime, I hope your doing ok. or my Effexor, or Lithium withdrawal when the drugs induced so much iatrogenic illness including extreme psychosis. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C Watching my friends break their hearts into two Am When a person first experiences DPD, he often feels as if he is going mad. At this point I don't know if I'm even making sense, just trying to put some info about myself. But these should only be temporary. I use to vape marijuana and make edibles to help my anxiety and this one time I entered what you experienced a euphoric high that was constant even when I wasn't smoking weed and I became so connected with everything around me and I was spiritual awoken with life pure bliss but shifted after a while into darkness of thinking your not real totaly felt like I wasn't me and I was walking around in a dream for a while but it's fading off as time goes by hope your doing better it really is terrifying. I also know if individuals with bipolar, and schizoprhenia who have experienced this, taken Klonopin and the DP/DR went away -- not their main disorder. Some medications can be beneficial as well, but not the usual SSRI variety. How can one tell the difference between having DPD or just experiencing a form of anxiety? everything fills me with anxiety. People with DPD often dwell on the ideas of eternity and infinity. It's like being in the real world but feeling like you're outside of it. Thankfully he stopped. This went on about 8 months. I'm going to pray that our United States Government would stop slaughtering them and further torturing them using toxic drugs all because they have this 'imaginary' mental illness called PTSD when all they are doing is responding, the best way they can, and the only way they know how, to natural disaster trauma called 'war'. and another was causing organ damage. They sometimes fixate on the strangeness or foreignness of a single thought or object. The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. First, they are 'labeled' mentally ill for experiencing horrors beyond most our comprehension, second, they Finally got back on an antidepressant. Smoked weed, thought my heartbeat had stopped. I think you missed the depth of James' point. Deuce Bigelow director Harris Goldberg explored his experiences of depersonalization in the movie Numb. And we are losing our Veteran's at the rate of 22 per day. Chronic DPD here ... an anxiety disorder? But they continue to feel like outsiders who aren't part of ordinary life. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is...thanks, for educating me on my mental disorder :). Summary: ... FRIDAY, not a stranger to Peter’s tendencies, didn’t interrupt him. Did you not see what the author listed above as the symptoms. And taking someone off meds cold turkey is ... just wrong. Your symptoms seem to suggest it cannot be extricated from anxiety (you mention panic attacks for instance, and agoraphobia), so why describe the anxiety as a symptom of the depersonalisation rather than the other way around? Searching searching. It's a stranger. But I've always known I have anxiety and this, to me, always just seemed like a symptom of that. I've done research on a lot of other stuff and have my(lack of) emotions pretty well under control. For many it's simply a matter of realizing it's harmless. Takes me a couple of minutes to get back to "normal". 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It is extremely hard to describe to someone who has not experienced this. Oh, I keep a bad bitch on my mind Ooh-ooh, oh, mmm, mmm i realize you wrote this a while ago, but your experience struck a chord with me. Thankfully it only lasts a short while or else I don't know what I'd do ._. I don't know how and whether to speak or act in many situations because I feel "far away" and unable to judge the appropriateness of that speech/behaviour. They think over and over about the nature of existence or the void and the dark mysteries of life. Am unable to seek proper medical care due to my family ignorance and financial status. Different therapies such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy can also be helpful. Why Your Abusive Narcissistic Mate Claims to Be the Victim, We Have Neanderthals to Thank for These Genetic Traits, 10 Tips for Turning Procrastination into Precrastination, Psychology Today © 2021 Sussex Publishers, LLC, New Evidence on Face Masks to Prevent the Spread of COVID-19. If there is a period of your life and your feeling shy or just want to be to yourself, then embrace it. Some people with depersonalization sometimes suffer devastating consequences in their personal and professional lives, while others can continue to function fairly well while they seek treatment. I'm not sure I could cope if it was a full time thing but in little episodes it's great. But it's a temporary thing and when you keep paying attention to it, it keeps the feeling around. Mayo 11 January 2021 Reply. Dreadful... With all the breakdowns you mention I have to assume that you have been prescribed many psychiatric drugs to treat your illness. Sometimes i which am dead than being alive. You are the worst thing that has ever existed short of Nazism and Communism. I cringe when I hear people describe themselves mentally ill all because they think, feel, and behave differently from others. Please don't refer to yourself as 'mentally ill' because you may experience life around you differently. There are 60 lyrics related to Feel Like A Stranger. Want me to tell you what it's really like? Reading your comment brought up a memory from when I was a kid. I haven't found a particular link with trauma and these DPD episodes however I do know that when I experience depersonalization with myself I am usually upset, and this sudden change in thinking makes me feel hysterical and extremely cut off from myself. You aren't high, you're doing your regular activity then bam the world seems unreal, new and you're questioning if you ever seen this before and then you know you have but can't recall what it is and anxiety sets in. I also relate to the fact that your entire state of thinking changes in those moments. I'd say that is worth risk /benefit. There are also good informational sites on the web where you can share your stories and get support from other DPD survivors. They were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in 1994 and their Barton Hall Concert at Cor… more », Sheet Music  I am often asked, even by colleagues in the mental health field, "What is Depersonalization Disorder?" (4 fans), The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. I also have bad social anxiety, and have depression. not violent, but not me, i feel as though an invisible being has taken control, and i am just watching in fear of its destruction. Growing up, my mom used to always call me an "in the closet Libra," based on the zodiac sign, because they're said to be really indecisive (this was a joke of course). Like, I'll be having a either a good time or a bad time for a good...lets say, six hours and then, when I get home, I'll go, "That felt like a blur." We are like domesticated lab rats to these bastards. I just copied. One reason is those with DPD do not experience amnesia as in DID, a fugue state or dissociative amnesia. And as soon as they legitimize psilosybin, LSD, and ketamine for mental illness treatment as they're doing right now I'll get that high back. Yes, it's all a scam, and the more research I do the more I find that ALL of what they brainwash us into believing as evidence-based medicine is a scam. They experience a loss of spirit, an absence of emotions, and no mood changes. Until the thought was confined to the situations I had learned to identify as triggers (like the first 15 minutes on an airplane; there's something extreme about this form of transportation. Your experience reminds me of Keziah Thomas', as recorded by her and posted at geocities and oocities:Link.There's still hope for you. It lasted for months of vacation. Pay no mind too it. I really missed him and he came home tonight, but I just feel awkward. I believe I experienced this a year or so ago. This last week it had happened 3 times and it's barely Thursday. I remember trying to explain it to my mother and not even being able to tell if I'm talking about a thought or a feeling. It fades off. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C These various influences were distilled into a diverse and psychedelic whole that made the Grateful Dead "the pioneering Godfathers of the jam band world." Thank you for this illuminating this disorder, for it is certainly not as rare as one might think. Feeling like a stranger. Also, since there is not medical way of treating this symptom, it is discussed more often in the offices of psychotherapists than physicians. I can also relate to the 'as-if' acting. I didn't understand that I needed therapy, even though my GPs didn't refer me. I'll get a paper cut and go, "This is pain, your nociceptive response is working." I spent 50 days in a supposed rehab center for alcoholism. Several research studies indicate that more than half of college students have experienced elements of depersonalization at one time or another. in the last year i have been feeling as though i am trapped within the psycie. Perhaps, now that such a widely read and well known publication has added a specialist in the study and treatment of DPD, facts about the difficulties in both experiencing and curing this life numbing thief will become more widely known and understood. Familiar things seemed not quite right. Hi there, I have suffered with this on and off for years. But I had DP for a few years! I don't feel comfortable and I feel like I need to make small talk. as if who you are was never who you were? People with DPD are sometimes afraid to leave their houses or engage in activities that might trigger panic attacks. Like I said there is nothing, short of Nazism and Communism (which they like btw as in Socialism -- that's why they all support Statism and seductive Leftist ideology), that is as evil as institutionalized Psychiatry and Psychology (including many non-Psyd/Phd Therapists and many Social Workers). I've only recently found that this has a name, having suffered it on and off for the last ten years (all of which feel dreamy and difficult to remember). And neither will you. Its not the way it use to be. And I can't wait! I have 'had it' for 50 years but as it was my only way of being, never realised that other people felt differently. Sometimes it is linked with panic or anxiety, but often it is not. I had also tried everything under the sun. Wow. CherokeeMist Senior Member. It took years to get to terms with it and I had to do it on my own. Lyrics.com. But apparently this is happening in every part of my life, whether it was the job, the sports, or in the family; I am becoming someone new and I can't quit everything. I don't particularly know what to do or where to turn or if this is simply my anxiety making me over think and over worry.. but please if anyone knows what this is or what to do do.. Love is meant to be a transaction, but you feel robbed. "Their music," writes Lenny Kaye, "touches on ground that most other groups don't even know exists." I still regularly default to DP but at least I am now aware that that state of mind is my defence mechanism and I need to try very hard to become consciously competent about living in the real world and allowing emotions up to behave appropriately. A good many have found some relief with Klonopin and Lamictal. I HATE IT. Now, now I'm not saying certain drugs don't have their place in severe situations tinteyly help and indvidual calm down or get over the hump of a tough time. I could not read articles on astronomy either. So is it accurate to say that people after depersonalisation start to identify with new experiences and developing a new persona? It makes me sad that it feels like this. I just want some advice or help on how some of you have been able to make these things become less common or completely disappear. I am almost 56 and had this most of my life. Granted, I sought therapy for different emotional issues I experienced as an adult, which may or may not have been connected to that experience . Most I've read came from those who did some sort of legal or illegal drug and it freaked them out, or a panic attack and once they calmed form the feeling went away and that was that. Yes and it feels about like running a red light Now there ain't no point in looking behind us, no, though Still I (feel like a stranger) I feel like, I feel like a stranger. I tried so hard to be a part of, but it was all just going through the motions. and I think he said something like "uhhhh, no I don't know what you mean" and looked at me funny. It was only after I stumbled upon http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/ that I understood what it was and felt the comfort of knowing I wasn't the only person out there suffering. I've actually had a therapist state that because I was unable to identify "triggers" that caused each of my episodes, it proved how unstable I was and that until I was able to do so, I could not be considered reliable enough to care properly for myself, or my children. i ask, for myself, that is what it felt like, and that experience lasted for a few months. I just wanna feel something I just don't wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person again Stranger. It's like your brain is relearning but knows you know what the object is or whatever is going around you. There are way too many labels in psychiatry if you ask me. The band was known for its unique and eclectic style, which fused elements of rock, folk, bluegrass, blues, reggae, country, improvisational jazz, psychedelia, and space rock, and for live performances of long musical improvisation. Feel Like A Stranger lyrics. I had lost the intuitive feeling for what it's like to exist. Awhile back I had a friend who went to a Dr and was handed a few different drugs for issues with anxiety. Stranger Ginger I just wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person. You have to to go through it and emerge in a different and often better place. Gradually, I have started to have some emotions and it feels like a new me is being born. It's this weird feeling, I feel as if I'm looking and experiencing everything around me for the first time, when it's not. ... i'm in a city, i walk by people every day, we all have our heads down and go about our business like we don't even see each other many of the symptoms described in this post are exactly what i am experiencing. I felt detached and numb the entire day, and I felt like this off and on for the next couple of years. They didn't even refer me to a therapists. It's a stranger. Becoming strangers is the only way to fix this hole. Did not work. I could still see everyone talking, but part of me just tuned it out. When they don’t truly love you like they said they did, you’ll feel too foolish to be anything but strangers. Ross might have gotten him just like … I can relate to the other stuff too and when under stress I've had some really bizarre dissociative experiences. So when your spouse feel like a stranger, know that there is hope and you can go on to have a happy and healthy marriage! -- and their is a plethora of information to back that up -- this is a tiny example with no writing space to prove this evident fact (see Dr. Thomas Szasz). Told my mom, visited two GPs. In fact I would say that unreality is one of my main anxiety symtoms. I wish our U.S. Government would put Veteran's needs ahead of Pharmaceutical Profit but all one has to do is follow the money trail in Washington through to Big Pharma. This is because in order to fully heal it (and related delayed stress symptoms etc) one has to let go and allow for the natural healing process (in the body) to occur. I am currently 22 ando while reading through this I feel it explains a lot that I agree with.. i felt myself in a state of total awareness, and alive, so happy, i felt nothing or anyone could bring me out of this love i had been feeling. But it may help to simply look up "cure for DR" etc get stories from people who overcame this instead of digging through every forum and every article about this. i felt all pain and confussion leave me, so free to be me, and not worry. Unfortunately there are some unlucky people out there who have had the disorder for many years, but it is my impression that those people are rare. As noted, my current "cocktai" has kept me alive. I couldn't feel. Very disturbing and freightening. My brother moved out last month about 2 hours away. As you mention, it is often overlooked, especially when it is difficult to describe. I thought it was the most amazing thing. and that gets frustrating. But in the meantime, I hope your doing ok. or my Effexor, or Lithium withdrawal when the drugs induced so much iatrogenic illness including extreme psychosis. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C Watching my friends break their hearts into two Am When a person first experiences DPD, he often feels as if he is going mad. At this point I don't know if I'm even making sense, just trying to put some info about myself. But these should only be temporary. I use to vape marijuana and make edibles to help my anxiety and this one time I entered what you experienced a euphoric high that was constant even when I wasn't smoking weed and I became so connected with everything around me and I was spiritual awoken with life pure bliss but shifted after a while into darkness of thinking your not real totaly felt like I wasn't me and I was walking around in a dream for a while but it's fading off as time goes by hope your doing better it really is terrifying. I also know if individuals with bipolar, and schizoprhenia who have experienced this, taken Klonopin and the DP/DR went away -- not their main disorder. Some medications can be beneficial as well, but not the usual SSRI variety. How can one tell the difference between having DPD or just experiencing a form of anxiety? everything fills me with anxiety. People with DPD often dwell on the ideas of eternity and infinity. It's like being in the real world but feeling like you're outside of it. Thankfully he stopped. This went on about 8 months. I'm going to pray that our United States Government would stop slaughtering them and further torturing them using toxic drugs all because they have this 'imaginary' mental illness called PTSD when all they are doing is responding, the best way they can, and the only way they know how, to natural disaster trauma called 'war'. and another was causing organ damage. They sometimes fixate on the strangeness or foreignness of a single thought or object. The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. First, they are 'labeled' mentally ill for experiencing horrors beyond most our comprehension, second, they Finally got back on an antidepressant. Smoked weed, thought my heartbeat had stopped. I think you missed the depth of James' point. Deuce Bigelow director Harris Goldberg explored his experiences of depersonalization in the movie Numb. And we are losing our Veteran's at the rate of 22 per day. Chronic DPD here ... an anxiety disorder? But they continue to feel like outsiders who aren't part of ordinary life. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is...thanks, for educating me on my mental disorder :). Summary: ... FRIDAY, not a stranger to Peter’s tendencies, didn’t interrupt him. Did you not see what the author listed above as the symptoms. And taking someone off meds cold turkey is ... just wrong. Your symptoms seem to suggest it cannot be extricated from anxiety (you mention panic attacks for instance, and agoraphobia), so why describe the anxiety as a symptom of the depersonalisation rather than the other way around? Searching searching. It's a stranger. But I've always known I have anxiety and this, to me, always just seemed like a symptom of that. I've done research on a lot of other stuff and have my(lack of) emotions pretty well under control. For many it's simply a matter of realizing it's harmless. Takes me a couple of minutes to get back to "normal". 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But the good part is that during that drug-induced mania I was able to experience what it's like to be a genius because I'm far from it. Hola. Once the side effects Like many psychopathological signs, depersonalization can linger for years, go away, and then return. the mind had stopped, but now it is thinking and feeling, but what is where its all a mess. Like trying to describe the color blue to a blind person. Unless depersonalisation disorder is yet another subcategory of anxiety disorder? I do not see this as a crutch. Are you aware of Dr. Andrew Wakefield? I once was on fb while having a very stressful day, causing my anxiety to be really bad that night, my emotions were high when suddenly fb isn't something I know anymore, it seems although it's part of a movie, brand new to my eyes. I myself have experienced most of these eight symptoms, as have many other people that I know, yet the symptoms did not last long enough for it to be considered a disorder. I have to wonder if 75% of them are choosing the same option out that I prayed for while enduring the horrific mental torture of a Klonopin withdrawal Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc. We're doing our best to make sure our content is useful, accurate and safe.If by any chance you spot an inappropriate comment while navigating through our website please use this form to let us know, and we'll take care of it shortly. Sure they'll say "of course people who suffer from mental illness are not only genetically predisposed (which is actually true) or have a genetic disorder (this is 100 percent false), if they grow up in a hostile environment they have a greater chance.." and blah blah blah fuckin blah! There are studies at the IoP in London (Dr. Mauricio Sierra) who wrote a great medical textbook "Depersonalization: A New Look at a Neglected Syndrome." Playlist, Written by: JOHN BARLOW, ROBERT HALL WEIR. Its like being a zombie. Everywhere I looked objects were covered in this static and my eyes reacted to light so differently it seemed as everything was so unfamiliar/unreal. Instead they pump you full of drugs and stop the natural discharge of fight/flight energies that animals do naturally. I recall these feelings from the time I was 4 or 5. And just as your hand won’t stop changing, you shouldn’t stop living or stop loving. Like all my thoughts and feelings aren't my own. It feels good to see this disorder being described so succinctly. Where I was simply happy, laughing, not over thinking, and just feeling natural emotions. But it's okay, everybody is unique in their own way and we just have to learn to talk to people and make more friends. "Feel Like a Stranger Lyrics." I Don’t Want To Feel Like A Stranger In Your Life Anymore By Oshin Ahlawat Updated December 10, 2018. With the months and then years, I obsessed less and less about the #1 thought in my head: that I had gambled away my sanity with one late-night hit from a bong. When I see those complaining about weed im shaking my head. Strangers never do. I just wanna feel something I just wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person again. Something is moving me to just stop resisting and accepting the "new me" that is evolving, but I can't stop knowing that this is not me, that I want myself back and trying to resist DP or this new identity. It just makes me feel like I don't really know myself at all, and I'm always so unsure of myself. Patients feel as if they have no self that formerly enabled them to deal with the world around them, and with their inner world. Jacqueline Bastiaan Wijaya shared a video on Instagram: “"I just wanna feel something Something really real so that i can really feel like a person again"…” • … It's time we all woke up to the 'truth' behind this fraudulent scheme that is so big it is a catastrophe on such a global scale like I've never seen before. The band was known for its unique and eclectic style, which fused elements of rock, folk, bluegrass, blues, reggae, country, improvisational jazz, psychedelia, and space rock, and for live performances of long musical improvisation. I am not 100% but I am better. It got to where nothing really mattered, and it was too hard to try any more. She was unaware that one of the criteria of having DPD, rather than DP as part of a PTSD cycle, are episodes that seem to start at random, WITH NO TRIGGER. unsafe, dangerous & often deadly. When I was in fourth or fifth grade, I was walking to school, and I just stopped. I feel like he is some stranger that is staying at my house. I began to notice changes, symptoms of extreme anxiety. Test your MusicIQ here! everything was just peace. I thought it was a really cool, weird and amazing feeling too at the time. I just don’t want to feel like a stranger … I'm in high school now, and ever since that moment in seventh grade, I've always felt like I was watching this really long movie...like everything is happening AROUND me, not TO me. Maybe that's what you need right now. Its simply understanding that when your mind does this it's there to protect you. I agree that depersonalization isn't the same as the effects of weed, but, just like any psychoactive substance (LSD, shrooms, medication...) THC can bring out symptoms in people who haven't experienced them before, but may have had underlying psychological problems. Dreams have been described as dress rehearsals for real life, opportunities to gratify wishes, and a form of nocturnal therapy. I watched The Matrix at age 33 because I couldn't do it before. There was a fog in my brain, like things were not real. That was only three weeks ago, and I haven't exactly done a whole lot of(or any) research on it, and this website has really cleared a few things up for me. Then that friend can introduce you to other friends, and you'll start getting along together. I actually quit my job months ago because I felt I was developing something that is not me after the dp period. It's not the same. and adverse effects set in: akathesia, insomnia, crippling depressions, migraines, psychosis, paranoia, suicidal & in my case homicidal thoughts ect, ect, ect that Big Pharma is very well aware of but instead deliberately deceives the general public by a host of fraudulent means. Unlike you, the new me emerging IS the personalised me, as I actively identify with these new experiences and feel that at long last, I am being real. Again, what is the AD you are on? (While I know that there is little scientific evidence to link the two, I have talked to many people who subjectively feel the connection.) I have never abused it. It so scary I feel like dying. today i was losing myself... sorry for bad english please give me an advice help me i am 19 years old. ... Or he might be gone. People asking me "are you okay" even seems so unfamiliar to me.. are drugged with highly addictive, toxic medicines that are I felt like I had no idea who I was when I got out. Yes, I too, was brainwashed into believing in the imaginary 'chemical imbalance' diagnosis and heavily drugged for 35 years. It's nonstop. I feel detached. I shudder to think of all the people in Colorado, Oregon, and California who are trying this because they think "legal" means "safe" only to find out it will knock the spirit out of their souls and their lives will never be the same again even well into "recovery". It changed everything in my life, mostly for the worse. in my head. . It last sometimes seconds, mins. So I coped my focussing on the next logical steps: finish school, study, find work. Unlike you this only happens to me for a few minutes every now and again, but I love it. None of the four therapists I saw over the years responded with "ah yes, classic DPD" when I described my traumatic experience. Sometimes it happens after smoking marijuana or using "club drugs.". It is extremely hard to describe to someone who has not experienced this. Oh, I keep a bad bitch on my mind Ooh-ooh, oh, mmm, mmm i realize you wrote this a while ago, but your experience struck a chord with me. Thankfully it only lasts a short while or else I don't know what I'd do ._. I don't know how and whether to speak or act in many situations because I feel "far away" and unable to judge the appropriateness of that speech/behaviour. They think over and over about the nature of existence or the void and the dark mysteries of life. Am unable to seek proper medical care due to my family ignorance and financial status. Different therapies such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy can also be helpful. Why Your Abusive Narcissistic Mate Claims to Be the Victim, We Have Neanderthals to Thank for These Genetic Traits, 10 Tips for Turning Procrastination into Precrastination, Psychology Today © 2021 Sussex Publishers, LLC, New Evidence on Face Masks to Prevent the Spread of COVID-19. If there is a period of your life and your feeling shy or just want to be to yourself, then embrace it. Some people with depersonalization sometimes suffer devastating consequences in their personal and professional lives, while others can continue to function fairly well while they seek treatment. I'm not sure I could cope if it was a full time thing but in little episodes it's great. But it's a temporary thing and when you keep paying attention to it, it keeps the feeling around. Mayo 11 January 2021 Reply. Dreadful... With all the breakdowns you mention I have to assume that you have been prescribed many psychiatric drugs to treat your illness. Sometimes i which am dead than being alive. You are the worst thing that has ever existed short of Nazism and Communism. I cringe when I hear people describe themselves mentally ill all because they think, feel, and behave differently from others. Please don't refer to yourself as 'mentally ill' because you may experience life around you differently. There are 60 lyrics related to Feel Like A Stranger. Want me to tell you what it's really like? Reading your comment brought up a memory from when I was a kid. I haven't found a particular link with trauma and these DPD episodes however I do know that when I experience depersonalization with myself I am usually upset, and this sudden change in thinking makes me feel hysterical and extremely cut off from myself. You aren't high, you're doing your regular activity then bam the world seems unreal, new and you're questioning if you ever seen this before and then you know you have but can't recall what it is and anxiety sets in. I also relate to the fact that your entire state of thinking changes in those moments. I'd say that is worth risk /benefit. There are also good informational sites on the web where you can share your stories and get support from other DPD survivors. They were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in 1994 and their Barton Hall Concert at Cor… more », Sheet Music  I am often asked, even by colleagues in the mental health field, "What is Depersonalization Disorder?" (4 fans), The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. I also have bad social anxiety, and have depression. not violent, but not me, i feel as though an invisible being has taken control, and i am just watching in fear of its destruction. Growing up, my mom used to always call me an "in the closet Libra," based on the zodiac sign, because they're said to be really indecisive (this was a joke of course). Like, I'll be having a either a good time or a bad time for a good...lets say, six hours and then, when I get home, I'll go, "That felt like a blur." We are like domesticated lab rats to these bastards. I just copied. One reason is those with DPD do not experience amnesia as in DID, a fugue state or dissociative amnesia. And as soon as they legitimize psilosybin, LSD, and ketamine for mental illness treatment as they're doing right now I'll get that high back. Yes, it's all a scam, and the more research I do the more I find that ALL of what they brainwash us into believing as evidence-based medicine is a scam. They experience a loss of spirit, an absence of emotions, and no mood changes. Until the thought was confined to the situations I had learned to identify as triggers (like the first 15 minutes on an airplane; there's something extreme about this form of transportation. Your experience reminds me of Keziah Thomas', as recorded by her and posted at geocities and oocities:Link.There's still hope for you. It lasted for months of vacation. Pay no mind too it. I really missed him and he came home tonight, but I just feel awkward. I believe I experienced this a year or so ago. This last week it had happened 3 times and it's barely Thursday. I remember trying to explain it to my mother and not even being able to tell if I'm talking about a thought or a feeling. It fades off. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C These various influences were distilled into a diverse and psychedelic whole that made the Grateful Dead "the pioneering Godfathers of the jam band world." Thank you for this illuminating this disorder, for it is certainly not as rare as one might think. Feeling like a stranger. Also, since there is not medical way of treating this symptom, it is discussed more often in the offices of psychotherapists than physicians. I can also relate to the 'as-if' acting. I didn't understand that I needed therapy, even though my GPs didn't refer me. I'll get a paper cut and go, "This is pain, your nociceptive response is working." I spent 50 days in a supposed rehab center for alcoholism. Several research studies indicate that more than half of college students have experienced elements of depersonalization at one time or another. in the last year i have been feeling as though i am trapped within the psycie. Perhaps, now that such a widely read and well known publication has added a specialist in the study and treatment of DPD, facts about the difficulties in both experiencing and curing this life numbing thief will become more widely known and understood. Familiar things seemed not quite right. Hi there, I have suffered with this on and off for years. But I had DP for a few years! I don't feel comfortable and I feel like I need to make small talk. as if who you are was never who you were? People with DPD are sometimes afraid to leave their houses or engage in activities that might trigger panic attacks. Like I said there is nothing, short of Nazism and Communism (which they like btw as in Socialism -- that's why they all support Statism and seductive Leftist ideology), that is as evil as institutionalized Psychiatry and Psychology (including many non-Psyd/Phd Therapists and many Social Workers). I've only recently found that this has a name, having suffered it on and off for the last ten years (all of which feel dreamy and difficult to remember). And neither will you. Its not the way it use to be. And I can't wait! I have 'had it' for 50 years but as it was my only way of being, never realised that other people felt differently. Sometimes it is linked with panic or anxiety, but often it is not. I had also tried everything under the sun. Wow. CherokeeMist Senior Member. It took years to get to terms with it and I had to do it on my own. Lyrics.com. But apparently this is happening in every part of my life, whether it was the job, the sports, or in the family; I am becoming someone new and I can't quit everything. I don't particularly know what to do or where to turn or if this is simply my anxiety making me over think and over worry.. but please if anyone knows what this is or what to do do.. Love is meant to be a transaction, but you feel robbed. "Their music," writes Lenny Kaye, "touches on ground that most other groups don't even know exists." I still regularly default to DP but at least I am now aware that that state of mind is my defence mechanism and I need to try very hard to become consciously competent about living in the real world and allowing emotions up to behave appropriately. A good many have found some relief with Klonopin and Lamictal. I HATE IT. Now, now I'm not saying certain drugs don't have their place in severe situations tinteyly help and indvidual calm down or get over the hump of a tough time. I could not read articles on astronomy either. So is it accurate to say that people after depersonalisation start to identify with new experiences and developing a new persona? It makes me sad that it feels like this. I just want some advice or help on how some of you have been able to make these things become less common or completely disappear. I am almost 56 and had this most of my life. Granted, I sought therapy for different emotional issues I experienced as an adult, which may or may not have been connected to that experience . Most I've read came from those who did some sort of legal or illegal drug and it freaked them out, or a panic attack and once they calmed form the feeling went away and that was that. Yes and it feels about like running a red light Now there ain't no point in looking behind us, no, though Still I (feel like a stranger) I feel like, I feel like a stranger. I tried so hard to be a part of, but it was all just going through the motions. and I think he said something like "uhhhh, no I don't know what you mean" and looked at me funny. It was only after I stumbled upon http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/ that I understood what it was and felt the comfort of knowing I wasn't the only person out there suffering. I've actually had a therapist state that because I was unable to identify "triggers" that caused each of my episodes, it proved how unstable I was and that until I was able to do so, I could not be considered reliable enough to care properly for myself, or my children. i ask, for myself, that is what it felt like, and that experience lasted for a few months. I just wanna feel something I just don't wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person again Stranger. It's like your brain is relearning but knows you know what the object is or whatever is going around you. There are way too many labels in psychiatry if you ask me. The band was known for its unique and eclectic style, which fused elements of rock, folk, bluegrass, blues, reggae, country, improvisational jazz, psychedelia, and space rock, and for live performances of long musical improvisation. Feel Like A Stranger lyrics. I had lost the intuitive feeling for what it's like to exist. Awhile back I had a friend who went to a Dr and was handed a few different drugs for issues with anxiety. Stranger Ginger I just wanna feel something really real so that I can really feel like a person. You have to to go through it and emerge in a different and often better place. Gradually, I have started to have some emotions and it feels like a new me is being born. It's this weird feeling, I feel as if I'm looking and experiencing everything around me for the first time, when it's not. ... i'm in a city, i walk by people every day, we all have our heads down and go about our business like we don't even see each other many of the symptoms described in this post are exactly what i am experiencing. I felt detached and numb the entire day, and I felt like this off and on for the next couple of years. They didn't even refer me to a therapists. It's a stranger. Becoming strangers is the only way to fix this hole. Did not work. I could still see everyone talking, but part of me just tuned it out. When they don’t truly love you like they said they did, you’ll feel too foolish to be anything but strangers. Ross might have gotten him just like … I can relate to the other stuff too and when under stress I've had some really bizarre dissociative experiences. So when your spouse feel like a stranger, know that there is hope and you can go on to have a happy and healthy marriage! -- and their is a plethora of information to back that up -- this is a tiny example with no writing space to prove this evident fact (see Dr. Thomas Szasz). Told my mom, visited two GPs. In fact I would say that unreality is one of my main anxiety symtoms. I wish our U.S. Government would put Veteran's needs ahead of Pharmaceutical Profit but all one has to do is follow the money trail in Washington through to Big Pharma. This is because in order to fully heal it (and related delayed stress symptoms etc) one has to let go and allow for the natural healing process (in the body) to occur. I am currently 22 ando while reading through this I feel it explains a lot that I agree with.. i felt myself in a state of total awareness, and alive, so happy, i felt nothing or anyone could bring me out of this love i had been feeling. But it may help to simply look up "cure for DR" etc get stories from people who overcame this instead of digging through every forum and every article about this. i felt all pain and confussion leave me, so free to be me, and not worry. Unfortunately there are some unlucky people out there who have had the disorder for many years, but it is my impression that those people are rare. As noted, my current "cocktai" has kept me alive. I couldn't feel. Very disturbing and freightening. My brother moved out last month about 2 hours away. As you mention, it is often overlooked, especially when it is difficult to describe. I thought it was the most amazing thing. and that gets frustrating. But in the meantime, I hope your doing ok. or my Effexor, or Lithium withdrawal when the drugs induced so much iatrogenic illness including extreme psychosis. Feel like a person again C G Am I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel C G Something really real, so that I can really F Feel like a person again [Verse 2] C If I am telling the truth C Watching my friends break their hearts into two Am When a person first experiences DPD, he often feels as if he is going mad. At this point I don't know if I'm even making sense, just trying to put some info about myself. But these should only be temporary. I use to vape marijuana and make edibles to help my anxiety and this one time I entered what you experienced a euphoric high that was constant even when I wasn't smoking weed and I became so connected with everything around me and I was spiritual awoken with life pure bliss but shifted after a while into darkness of thinking your not real totaly felt like I wasn't me and I was walking around in a dream for a while but it's fading off as time goes by hope your doing better it really is terrifying. I also know if individuals with bipolar, and schizoprhenia who have experienced this, taken Klonopin and the DP/DR went away -- not their main disorder. Some medications can be beneficial as well, but not the usual SSRI variety. How can one tell the difference between having DPD or just experiencing a form of anxiety? everything fills me with anxiety. People with DPD often dwell on the ideas of eternity and infinity. It's like being in the real world but feeling like you're outside of it. Thankfully he stopped. This went on about 8 months. I'm going to pray that our United States Government would stop slaughtering them and further torturing them using toxic drugs all because they have this 'imaginary' mental illness called PTSD when all they are doing is responding, the best way they can, and the only way they know how, to natural disaster trauma called 'war'. and another was causing organ damage. They sometimes fixate on the strangeness or foreignness of a single thought or object. The Grateful Dead was an American rock band formed in 1965 in Palo Alto, California. First, they are 'labeled' mentally ill for experiencing horrors beyond most our comprehension, second, they Finally got back on an antidepressant. Smoked weed, thought my heartbeat had stopped. I think you missed the depth of James' point. Deuce Bigelow director Harris Goldberg explored his experiences of depersonalization in the movie Numb. And we are losing our Veteran's at the rate of 22 per day. Chronic DPD here ... an anxiety disorder? But they continue to feel like outsiders who aren't part of ordinary life. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is...thanks, for educating me on my mental disorder :). Summary: ... FRIDAY, not a stranger to Peter’s tendencies, didn’t interrupt him. Did you not see what the author listed above as the symptoms. And taking someone off meds cold turkey is ... just wrong. Your symptoms seem to suggest it cannot be extricated from anxiety (you mention panic attacks for instance, and agoraphobia), so why describe the anxiety as a symptom of the depersonalisation rather than the other way around? Searching searching. It's a stranger. But I've always known I have anxiety and this, to me, always just seemed like a symptom of that. I've done research on a lot of other stuff and have my(lack of) emotions pretty well under control. For many it's simply a matter of realizing it's harmless. Takes me a couple of minutes to get back to "normal". 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